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And the last time i posted was 2013! What a shame!......but maybe not :)
I liked writing down my life's events, i used to have a diary, i often come across a page i randomly wrote and it brings joy in my heart when i reminisce those times. Sometimes i wish i could write everyday day....oh the joy of going back and reading every single pages of days gone by, of memories long forgotten and joys that lasted just but a minute.....i think that will be my greatest regret in life, not recording my days.
It is nearly the end of 2015.....2014 went by like a flash and this year....I can't even begin to understand what happened in all those days....it's gone by way toooo fast. One thing for sure, I have grown in leaps and bounds. I am not the woman i was last year, and i am not the woman i was in January. Events have changed me, changes have changed me. I am different and I am happy. Some if the changes are not so exciting but I know they will serve me well.
Lat year I lost an aunt, May the almighty God rest her soul in eternal peace. Early this year, around Easter, my sister lost her high school best friend. Along the way, many people i know have lost their loved ones. Young people are dying, people losing their babies, jobs lost, marriages disintegrating, our economy going downhill, planes crashing while others just disappear.....I must admit, the world is going nuts and mother earth must be in her full mourning attire as she watches a generation that is so deep in chaos that it is irredeemable.
I am trying to reflect on the events that have taken place this year. I have gained, I have lost, but more importantly, i have leaned. I am slowly letting go, I am letting life happen. I am learning that not everything is meant to be, not everyone in my life is meant to be there for ever. I am saying goodbye, and not looking back. I have leaned that the memories in my heart, are more cherished than a few fleeting seconds of pleasure with a stranger. I am taking longer strides, because it is what it is.....whether I run there or crawl, it is what it is. I would rather confront it sooner than later.
I have a sense of urgency. I know no one can see it, ask my sister, she thinks I am laid back, most people do. I am anything but laid back, looks can be very deceptive. I may look calm and collected on the outside, but the truth is, i have mountains of thoughts and emotions erupting deep within. Sometimes I think i will go crazy or simply bust. The thing is, I have no idea what the urgency is for, i just want to keep moving, keep doing, keep pushing......just to keep something going. I don't want to stop......but it is to a destination I know not about. I need a map, i need to know what i want for next year and the years ahead. Don't get me wrong,i have a vague idea, a clue.....but not a clear picture......are you lost? well, same here :)
So here's to a new year, to making new memories and recording of the same. Here's to more energy and resilience....cheers!!
I liked writing down my life's events, i used to have a diary, i often come across a page i randomly wrote and it brings joy in my heart when i reminisce those times. Sometimes i wish i could write everyday day....oh the joy of going back and reading every single pages of days gone by, of memories long forgotten and joys that lasted just but a minute.....i think that will be my greatest regret in life, not recording my days.
It is nearly the end of 2015.....2014 went by like a flash and this year....I can't even begin to understand what happened in all those days....it's gone by way toooo fast. One thing for sure, I have grown in leaps and bounds. I am not the woman i was last year, and i am not the woman i was in January. Events have changed me, changes have changed me. I am different and I am happy. Some if the changes are not so exciting but I know they will serve me well.
Lat year I lost an aunt, May the almighty God rest her soul in eternal peace. Early this year, around Easter, my sister lost her high school best friend. Along the way, many people i know have lost their loved ones. Young people are dying, people losing their babies, jobs lost, marriages disintegrating, our economy going downhill, planes crashing while others just disappear.....I must admit, the world is going nuts and mother earth must be in her full mourning attire as she watches a generation that is so deep in chaos that it is irredeemable.
I am trying to reflect on the events that have taken place this year. I have gained, I have lost, but more importantly, i have leaned. I am slowly letting go, I am letting life happen. I am learning that not everything is meant to be, not everyone in my life is meant to be there for ever. I am saying goodbye, and not looking back. I have leaned that the memories in my heart, are more cherished than a few fleeting seconds of pleasure with a stranger. I am taking longer strides, because it is what it is.....whether I run there or crawl, it is what it is. I would rather confront it sooner than later.
I have a sense of urgency. I know no one can see it, ask my sister, she thinks I am laid back, most people do. I am anything but laid back, looks can be very deceptive. I may look calm and collected on the outside, but the truth is, i have mountains of thoughts and emotions erupting deep within. Sometimes I think i will go crazy or simply bust. The thing is, I have no idea what the urgency is for, i just want to keep moving, keep doing, keep pushing......just to keep something going. I don't want to stop......but it is to a destination I know not about. I need a map, i need to know what i want for next year and the years ahead. Don't get me wrong,i have a vague idea, a clue.....but not a clear picture......are you lost? well, same here :)
So here's to a new year, to making new memories and recording of the same. Here's to more energy and resilience....cheers!!
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